The Ones Who Never Left

There was a road, a path, a way. No one remembered who made it. Some say it was always there.

It was simply there, worn into the earth by feet older than memory, the grass pressed flat, the stones turned smooth by passing. It went somewhere. Everyone who walked it knew this, not because they had been told, but because the walking itself told them. Something in the body recognized the direction even when the eyes could not see ahead.

For a long time there were no signs.

Then a man came back.

He had walked the road to its end and returned, and he was changed in ways he could not fully speak. Out of love — only out of love, there was nothing else in him at that moment — he cut a post and set it in the ground at the place where the road began, where it was easy to miss, where the grass had not been pressed down enough to make the path visible to an eye that did not already know to look. He carved an arrow. He pointed it true.

Then he walked back into his life and eventually he died.

Others came. Some saw the sign and walked. Some stood before the sign and felt something move in them and followed it down the road and did not look back. These ones also changed, in the same way the man had changed, in ways they could not fully speak.

But some stood before the sign and found the sign itself remarkable.

They studied it. They measured the angle of the arrow. They debated whether the post was the right wood, whether the carving had been done with sufficient care, whether the man had fully understood what the sign was pointing at when he erected it. They wrote careful accounts of the sign. They taught their children the accounts. They built a shelter over the sign to protect it from weather, and the shelter became a building, and the building became an institution, and the institution appointed keepers, and the keepers kept.

Pilgrims arrived from great distances and were brought before the sign and shown its meaning and examined on their understanding and sent away satisfied. The keepers were kind. They were not corrupt men. They loved the sign with a love that was real, as real as they knew how to make it, and they believed that tending it was the same as honoring what it pointed at.


Far away, in a country where the sign had never been erected, where no one had heard of the man or the arrow he erected or the institution that grew around it, a woman woke before dawn with an ache she could not name. She had felt it for years. She had tried to fill it with the things available to her and none of them had filled it. One morning she simply rose and walked in the direction the ache pulled her and did not stop.

The terrain was hard. There were no markers. There were stretches of darkness where she moved by feel alone, where the only evidence that she was still on a path was that her feet kept finding ground.

She walked for a long time.

She arrived.

She could not have said where she was. She had no words for it that would have satisfied the keepers of the sign, had she ever met them, had they ever thought to ask. But she was there. The thing the ache had always been reaching toward received her, and she was changed, in the way the man had been changed, in ways she could not fully speak.


The keepers still tend the sign.

They are not wicked men. On certain evenings, when the light falls at a particular angle and no one is asking them questions, one of them will sometimes look at the arrow, and follow its direction with his eyes, and feel something he cannot name pull briefly at him, like a current beneath still water.

He looks away. There are duties. He must maintain the sign.

Unaware of Any Sky

Prologue

He does not come when called.

That is the first principle.

One may sit by the pond for hours in pious expectation, rehearsing questions, arranging thoughts as though preparing an audience. He will not come then. He is not a confessor, nor a tutor, nor a domesticated emblem of transformation.

He arrives only when he deigns.

The first time I noticed him—truly noticed him—he hovered at eye level, no more than a yard distant, as if measuring me. His body was a narrow rod of lapis lazuli, his wings vibrating so rapidly they seemed less like appendages and more like a trembling in the air itself.

He did not blink.

Dragonflies do not blink. Their eyes are already nearly all eye—vast compound hemispheres that see in directions the human skull was never designed to accommodate. I felt regarded from angles I did not possess.

“Ah,” I said, aloud and foolishly.

He moved neither closer nor farther. Suspended. Exact.

Then he departed—straight upward, without arc, as if gravity had briefly reconsidered its commitments.

The pond resumed its composure.

I

He hunts with an efficiency bordering on arrogance.

Mosquitoes vanish in his vicinity. He arrests midair, pivots without visible preparation, reverses direction as though inertia were advisory rather than binding. His wings move independently, a subtle asymmetry that produces impossible steadiness.

I watched him for weeks before admitting that I had begun to wait.

He kept no schedule.

Some afternoons he skimmed the surface in quick patrols. Other days he did not come at all. When he landed upon a reed, it was never the same reed twice.

No pattern was to be discerned.

His body caught light differently depending on angle—blue one moment, green the next, then nearly black. It was possible I had seen three different dragonflies and had, out of preference, consolidated them into one.

The pond did not clarify the matter.

Once, he settled on the sleeve of my coat. The weight was negligible; the steadiness was not. I could see the articulation of the thorax, the delicate architecture of the wings, the vast curvature of the eyes.

Only precision.

He departed without hesitation.

II

Before there were wings, there was silt.

The nymph does not glitter. It does not hover in sunlight. It does not arrest the eye of a passerby and cause him to pause mid-thought. It lives in suspension among weeds and sediment, armored, blunt, patient. Its color is the color of concealment.

It breathes through hidden gills. It moves by impulse, expelling water from its own body to lunge forward in short, decisive bursts. The hinged jaw—an apparatus both ingenious and faintly grotesque—extends and retracts with mechanical precision. It is not beautiful. It is efficient.

Years pass in this element.

Above, seasons turn with spectacle. Leaves flame and fall. Snow forms and recedes. Children shout and depart. The sky performs its elaborate variations. Beneath, the nymph waits.

It feeds. It molts. It grows by increments invisible to any watching eye.

There is no rehearsal of flight.

No hint of iridescence.

Only duration.

I had known such water.

Not mud in any literal sense, but rooms where light was steady and unremarkable. Shelves heavy with volumes that few opened. Papers drafted and redrafted with care disproportionate to their audience. Sentences weighed not for applause but for consequence.

Most of my adult life had been spent parsing language that determined outcomes. Words examined for fissures. Clauses tightened against ambiguity. Arguments constructed to withstand scrutiny, though scrutiny rarely arrived with drama. It was a discipline of precision rather than spectacle.

Years accumulated.

There were no headlines. No sudden recognitions. No visible ascent. Only the quiet refinement of judgment, the slow correction of error, the recognition—hard-won—that certainty often masks impatience.

At the time, I did not think of it as formation.

It felt, more often than not, like sediment.

I read when others preferred summary. I annotated when others skimmed. I held to arguments unfashionable but internally coherent. I resisted certain enthusiasms not from contrarian instinct but from suspicion of haste.

None of this made me luminous.

The pond’s surface remained undisturbed.

I sometimes wondered whether I had mistaken depth for obscurity. Whether the refusal of spectacle was discipline or merely temperament. Whether the years were accumulating meaning or merely accumulating.

The nymph does not ask these questions.

It consumes what passes within reach. It survives. It grows until its exoskeleton tightens against further expansion. Then it splits and sheds, leaving behind the evidence of enlargement.

I, too, had shed skins. Positions once held firmly, later abandoned without ceremony. Assumptions relinquished not in crisis but in attrition. Convictions refined by encounter with stubborn fact.

But the shedding was not dramatic.

No one marked the reed.

The husks fell unnoticed.

If there was preparation, it was not for display. If there was transformation, it was gradual enough to escape detection. The years beneath the surface did not whisper of eventual flight. They whispered only of continuation.

When I first learned that a dragonfly might live two or three years submerged and only weeks in the air, I resisted the symmetry. It felt too convenient. Too consoling.

Was I to believe that duration beneath the surface is always apprenticeship? That obscurity is inherently preparatory? That waiting is purposeful?

The pond did not confirm it.

The nymph hunts because it must. It waits because there is no alternative. It grows because growth is the consequence of survival, not of design.

It does not know the sky.

Perhaps that is the truest thing.

I had not known the sky either. Not in any luminous sense. There had been no moment of sudden iridescence, no public ascent, no season in which I hovered brilliantly over the surface of things.

And yet, I remained.

The nymph remains.

Years pass in water that reflects nothing of what is forming below.

One evening, after watching the dragonfly depart without landing, I walked the perimeter of the pond and found an empty shell clinging to a reed. The thorax split cleanly along the seam. The legs fixed in their final grip. The mask of the face intact but hollow.

It was lighter than I expected.

I held it between thumb and forefinger and felt the frailty of what had once been armored.

No sentiment accompanied the discovery.

Only recognition.

The shell crumbled in my hand.

The pond held its surface.

And somewhere below, another nymph waited, unaware of any sky.

III

The next afternoon, I brought a camera.

He appeared almost immediately.

He hovered above the shallows, then settled upon a low branch. I adjusted the lens. The viewfinder reduced him to framing—wings, thorax, angle, depth.

The shutter clicked.

He lifted.

The image, when examined later, was competent. The wings caught mid-beat. The eyes sharp. The background softened into abstraction.

He looked contained.

The following days passed without visitation.

The pond remained.

Wind disturbed the surface. A heron stood in the shallows. Insects moved in small, unnoticed arcs.

The camera remained on the desk.

Waiting resumed without apparatus.

IV

He had not come in eleven days.

I counted without meaning to. The mind, deprived of its irregular visitation, begins to mark absence the way it once marked presence.

The pond continued without him.

Mornings arrived grey and then brightened. The reeds thickened toward autumn. A skin of algae moved slowly across the northern shallows, indifferent to season or witness.

I read. I worked. The kettle was filled and emptied and filled again.

On the eleventh night I dreamt of forests.

Not forests I had seen. Not the managed woodlands of memory, thinned by path and signage, explained by a placard at the trail’s edge. These were older. The air was thick and warm and carried a weight that modern air has forgotten. Ferns rose to the height of buildings. Moss covered everything with the patience of something that had never known urgency.

The light was greenish. Diffuse.

They moved through it slowly.

Enormous. Wings like pale membranes stretched across frameworks of impossible delicacy. Wingspans wider than my arms extended. Bodies long as my forearm, hovering without effort in air that seemed designed to receive them.

There were many.

I stood among the ferns and was not frightened.

One descended to my level.

It regarded me with eyes that were almost entirely eye.

It said:

“We were here before your certainties.”

Nothing more.

I did not respond.

It ascended without haste.

The forest continued.

I woke before dawn. The room was dark and familiar. The books on their shelves. The papers where I had left them.

I made tea.

The dream did not feel symbolic. It felt geological — the way certain facts settle past argument into simple weight. Three hundred million years. Before birds. Before flowers. Before anything that called itself a thought had moved through any skull.

They had flown through all of it.

I drank the tea at the window.

The pond was dark, the reeds motionless.

I did not write the dream down.

Some things are diminished by record.

He did not appear that day.

Nor the next.

The dream did not repeat.

V

He returned on the fifteenth day.

The color was less decisive. The lapis lazuli had dulled toward iron. The wings, when he settled, did not lie as cleanly along the body. One bore a slight tear near the margin, visible when the light struck it.

He lifted, hovered, adjusted, then settled again.

The motion was precise.

The pond had begun its turn toward autumn. Insects were fewer. The evenings cooled without declaration.

He hunted as before.

If there was diminishment, it was not in capacity but in surface.

He remained longer than usual.

The sun moved. The light changed temperature.

He lifted without ceremony and crossed the pond once, low, then rose beyond the far bank and vanished into trees I could not see through.

Fear, when unexamined, seeks climax. It wants a marked ending — a final landing that can be named as such. The pond offers no such assurances.

The absence was not dramatic.

It was seasonal.

VI

The mornings arrived colder.

Mist held briefly above the water before lifting without trace. The reeds stood rigid at their bases. The algae withdrew and thinned.

There were fewer insects now.

No blue crossed the line between reeds.

The branch where he had once settled bore no mark of preference.

The pond clarified as the season advanced. Stones along the bottom became visible. A fallen limb half-buried in silt. The slow movement of something unseen slipping between shadows.

Nothing announced absence.

It settled.

One morning the surface lay entirely still.

The water reflected the sky without distortion.

The light moved across it without instruction.

A thin skin formed at the northern edge and broke before noon.

The reeds inclined slightly in wind too distant to be felt on shore.

No visitation followed.

No summation arrived.

The pond continued.

The surface held.

And beneath it, something moved—unaware of any sky.


The Man with One Map

“Non confundar in aeternum.” This Latin phrase—”Never let me be confounded”—comes from Psalm 30:2 and Ambrose’s Te Deum. In my parable “The Man with One Map,” I use it ironically: as a caution against the very rigidity it seems to champion. To refuse ever to be confounded is to turn away from the facts, the bends, the contingencies of the world. When reality contradicts our preferred map, we face a choice: revise the map or insist the world is wrong. My parable follows a master cartographer who chooses his certainty, his facts, his reality, over truth itself—until the world teaches him otherwise. It is a story about the cost of ideological capture and the wisdom of holding our frameworks lightly, with humility. Every map we create is provisional. Wisdom begins not with denying the world’s power to confound us, but with acknowledging that power, and revising our maps when warranted.

πόλλ’ οἶδ’ ἀλώπηξ, ἀλλ’ ἐχῖνος ἓν μέγα

The fox knows many things, but the hedgehog one great thing.

—Archilochus, Fragment 201

“Non confundar in aeternum,” the cartographer muttered as he unrolled his chart upon the council table. He said it whenever someone questioned the authority of lines.

The map was exquisite: vellum washed with pale seas, ranges shaded as if they were slumbering beasts, towns stippled in careful ink. It bore a golden stamp of the Guild and a marginal note in the cartographer’s own fine hand: Ex universis legibus terrarum—From the universal laws of lands. He had made it in his youth, riding the marches with soldiers and surveyors, triangulating sun to steeple, steeple to hill. Kings had trusted it. Merchants folded it close to their hearts.

Now he was old enough to have students and adversaries, but not so old as to doubt the charter of his life.

The city had summoned a council because caravans were vanishing on the southern road. The map showed a simple passage between river and ridge, a straight corridor to the salt ports. Yet messengers returned late or not at all, and those who survived spoke of marsh and misdirection, of sudden fogs and roads that forked where no fork should be.

In the council hall, the cartographer smoothed the vellum and placed lead weights upon the corners. “The error,” he said with gentle authority, “lies not in the chart, but in your conduct. The road is straight. If your men lose it, it is because they stray. Cleave to the line.”

Across the table, a surveyor of lesser years cleared her throat. She carried a case stuffed with flimsy, oil-smudged sheets: tidal charts, sketches of fallen bridges, diagrams with dates scribbled in the margins.

“With respect,” she said, “the river moved.”

“Rivers do not move,” the cartographer replied, “except in the imagination of those who fear getting their boots wet. The river is here.” He tapped the braided blue with a well-tended nail. “The law of the land agrees.”

“The law was written when the old poplar still stood by the ford,” she said. “The poplar is now a stump, and the ford is a sink. The river took a bend during the spring floods and laid down a swamp where your corridor was drawn. The road you show is no road, but reeds.”

The guildmaster’s eyebrows rose. The cartographer, who taught that the shortest route was a moral as well as a geometric virtue, returned the stare unblinking. “Then drain the swamp,” he said, “or bridge it. The line remains. The task is to make the world fit its description.”

He won that day, as he often did. He was learned and calm, and his one map had become a kind of liturgy. “Non confundar,” murmured the clerks when they indexed the city archives. “Let us not be confounded.” The council funded embankments. Engineers hammered piles into the mud where the vellum demanded that firm ground should be. The road reappeared, for a season, and wagons creaked forward with their cargoes of wool and salt and rumors.

Then the road vanished again.

This time it was not the river, but men. A brotherhood of armed riders—some called them bandits, others privateers, others still “the new keepers of the peace”—began to charge a passage fee at the bottleneck where ridge pressed river. The cartographer disdained such contingencies. “Tolls are marginalia,” he said. “We do not redraw coastlines for the graffiti of pickpockets.”

But the brotherhood entrenched. The toll grew from coin to cargo, from cargo to tribute, from tribute to decree. They built a timber hall and planted banners along the ridge. By the winter’s end a priest had blessed them, and in spring a scribe copied their schedules onto parchment with the city’s very ink. What began as extortion acquired a rubric, a calendar, a seal.

“Shakedown gussied up as law,” muttered the surveyor.

“Law tames force,” replied the cartographer. “If wolves must exist, better they wear collars.”

“But whose collars?” she asked.

He did not answer. He had begun to feel an ache behind the eyes whenever she spoke.

In the taverns, men told a story—simpler than the truth and catchy as a sailor’s tune—about two travelers: a man with one map and a woman with many. They set out separately for the salt ports. He studied his single chart with monastic devotion. She carried a handful of scraps, some borrowed, some smudged by rain, some contradicting one another. He mocked her disorder privately and, when pressed, publicly.

The man with one map made excellent time upon leaving the gates, for every step he took confirmed his certainty. The woman lagged, stopping to ask her way, sketching fresh lines on her scraps, erasing others.

When he came to the place where the river had laid down its new will, he stepped forward into reeds and found the earth at once solid and treacherous, like old philosophy. He tested each step against the chart. Where the ground disagreed, he corrected the ground by fiat. When the reeds rose to his chest, he raised the chart higher lest it be wetted. The map stayed true—dry in his fingers—while the world soaked his bones. He declared this a triumph of principle.

The woman with many maps, meanwhile, hired a boat.

By late summer, the man with one map had reached the brotherhood’s hall. He read his charter to the toll-keeper, who listened with a polite boredom common among men whose reality includes rope. “The corridor is free,” the cartographer recited. “Ex universis legibus—by the universal laws.”

“Universals,” said the toll-keeper, and reached out a hand. “Pay the particular.”

The cartographer paid nothing. He appealed to the city seal, to the king’s commission, to the guild’s stamp, to the algebra of lines. The toll-keeper shrugged toward the timber hall and the men beside it who understood that a rope is a sentence and a coin is the clause that spares it.

The woman with many maps had joined a convoy two valleys over, where a miller’s cousin kept a bridle path the guild had never deigned to chart because the bends were spiteful and the gradients rude. The convoy moved at the pace of old songs, full of hesitations and reprises. They crossed under night through a pass where the stars punched cold pinholes in the sky, and someone—no one later agreed who—began to call the constellations by unfamiliar names that nevertheless led the feet more safely than the sanctioned titles.

When the woman reached the salt ports, she folded her scraps, added a new sheet, and sent a letter to the council: The road you fund is not the road your wagons take. Your line is an aspiration; your merchants follow possibilities.

The cartographer, at last returning to the city after having been relieved of his money, his dignity, and a fair measure of his certainty, found the surveyor waiting in the archive. She did not gloat. She brought him a jar of ointment for the bites the marsh had left upon his ankles, and a thin book of poems copied by a monk who loved rivers.

“This does not disprove the map,” he said hoarsely.

“Of course not,” she said. “It proves the river.”

That winter, the council convened again—not to condemn the cartographer but because the harvest had failed west of the ridge, and the city needed grain. There were three possible routes: the corridor (in theory), the bridle path (in practice), and a coastal voyage via the river (in hope). The guild argued for the corridor as a matter of jurisdiction and dignity. The merchants argued for the bridle path because they had mended its bridges with their own coin. The sailors—men from the salt ports who had come upriver to trade—argued for the voyage because they feared neither storms nor land clerks.

A philosopher of the town—one who had read widely of systems that claim to be universal—rose to speak. He praised the aesthetic beauty of the single chart, the vigor of the bridle path, and the enormous patience of the sea. He then said what made everyone scowl equally:

“Friends, the grain does not care which theory carries it.”

The cartographer felt the ache behind his eyes widen into a room. He looked down upon his vellum. The coastline had always been elegant, the hills chaste, the road a melody of certitudes. But for the first time he seemed to see, not the thing depicted, but the hand that had drawn it—the youth that had believed the crispness of ink could render the world obedient.

In the margins, a faint earlier line showed through where the vellum had been scraped and redrawn, a palimpsest of a road abandoned because the mathematics proved it suboptimal. He remembered the day: a peasant had told him of a spring beside that older line, where travelers might drink and horses lower their heads in gratitude. He had erased the spring with a cold clarity. A road was not a sequence of mercies; it was a rule.

“Bring me your scraps,” he said to the surveyor.

She blinked, uncertain whether he mocked her. He did not. He cleared a corner of the table and laid the flimsy sheets beside the vellum—the flood sketches, the tally of fallen poplars, the toll schedules copied from the brotherhood’s hall by a clerk with neat hands and no illusions, the sailors’ soundings, the miller’s cousin’s memory of the pass where the stars had strange names. One by one, he set weights to keep the restless papers from curling back into themselves.

“Now,” he said, “show me the world as it is endured.”

They worked through the night. The archivists brought candles and, later, broth. The surveyor corrected with a carpenter’s pencil. The cartographer used a silver knife to lift old ink without flaying the skin of the map. He learned where to leave a line tentative, where to mark a ford as variabilis, where to note in small script a spring, an inn with bread, a shrine before which fools and sages had both confessed their need for luck. He engraved upon the vellum the best-known extortions as if they, too, were features of the land—for what was law but a toll that had learned to write?

Near dawn, the guildmaster entered and stopped in the doorway, startled to see the one map begetting a family.

“You would surrender the authority of form?” he asked, half-sorrowing, half-accusing.

“No,” said the cartographer, without looking up. “I would surrender the pretense that form is the world.”

In the spring, the city sent for grain by two routes: along the bridle path that wound through the western valleys, and down the old straight road that now led to the river’s new course. There, wagons gave way to barges that followed the current to the sea, and ships that hugged the coast like prudent lovers brought back their cargoes from the salt ports. Both routes skirted the brotherhood’s tolls entirely, leaving their banners to flutter over an empty pass. By land and by water alike, the grain returned not because the council had chosen the correct theory of roads, but because they had chosen to reach the hungry.

The brotherhood along the ridge—now styling themselves wardens—sent a deputation to complain that the map had given their toll an air of legitimacy by drawing it as if it were a hill. The cartographer listened and replied, “Hills may be leveled, but only by a labor you have not yet met.” The wardens, hearing in this neither blessing nor threat but an accounting of how the world answers those who insist, returned to their timber hall and argued among themselves whether to become sheriffs or pirates.

Years passed. The cartographer’s students learned two ways of looking: first at the vellum, then out the window. They learned to mark on the chart the places where certainty thins, and to go there kindly. The surveyor left the archives for a time to ride with caravans, then returned to teach a course called On Bends.

People brought the map to their faces and breathed the scent of its animal skin and the ink that had turned from black to brown. They debated whether the marginal notes—those apologies to contingency—were betraying the purity of the art or saving its honor. They argued as citizens do: earnestly, with a stake. Meanwhile, the grain moved, the ships put in, the bridle path widened tread by tread of boots, and a new poplar grew by the new ford, which boys would someday mistake for the old. The river laid down another bend and reclaimed it; the city repaired; the wardens grew gray and learned to write better.

One late afternoon, the cartographer walked to the ridge alone. He carried no map. The light came slanting, rendering every furrow articulate. A boy was stacking stones beside the road into a little tower that would fall at the next good wind. The boy saluted, as children do when they sense they are seen. The cartographer nodded and passed on.

From the ridge he could see the bridle path like a thought the city had finally permitted itself to think. He could see the barges making their slow commandments along the river’s new grammar. He could see, far off, a white scrap that might have been a gull’s wing or a sail or a prayer.

He thought of the maxim he had repeated all his life—Non confundar in aeternum—and smiled at how, in the end, the only sure way not to be confounded is to admit, in time, that the ground is entitled to confound you.

When he returned to the archives, he took down the brass stamp of the Guild and pressed it into a blank corner of the vellum—not over a line, not over a named thing, but in a small open space, as if to confess that every map owes the world a margin.

Beneath the seal he wrote, in a hand that trembled more now than when he was a young man forcing springs to disappear: The law of the land is not the land. Use this to begin.

Of Goose and Grin: When Tales Step Off the Page

What happens when the characters tumble from their tales? When rhyme stumbles, and the Goose remembers? In this playful and poignant poem, nursery rhymes unravel, fairy tales awaken, and the stories themselves walk past their plots. “Once Upon Askew” is a whimsical reflection on the lives of stories—and those who dwell within them.


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Once Upon Askew

or, The Story That Would Not Sit Still
by Donald S. Yarab

Listen, child—I am the Old Grey Goose,
And I was there when books came loose,
When volumes tumbled, pages flew,
And all the stories mixed like stew.

It started with a mighty thud—
Books falling open, words like mud,
All swirling, mingling, line by line,
Till Alice’s world came mixing into mine.

“Curiouser and curiouser!” she cried,
Right into Cow’s green pasture-side,
Where “Hey Diddle Diddle” used to play—
Now Cow asks questions all the day.

The Spoon caught Alice’s strange delight,
Abandoned dishes, fled by night,
Beneath a moon from whose bright story—
From Carroll’s tale or Goose’s glory?

I squawked from my own tumbled page—
Which book? What tale? What ancient age?
While Cat’s grin stretched across our scene,
Belonging nowhere, everywhere seen.

We passed the wall where once he sat—
Poor Humpty, puzzled, round, and flat.
Though patched, he watches, cracked but clear,
And murmurs, “Not all ends end in fear.”

But one lay still beyond the swirl—
A slumbering, untouched young girl.
The tales all passed; she did not wake,
No prince, no plot her trance to break.
Yet in her stillness, something stirred—
A dream not shaped by spoken word.

We found Red Riding Hood alone,
Her basket lost, her sure path gone.
The Wolf came next—not sly, but stunned,
As if unsure what he had done.
They walked apart, then side by side,
Two stories stripped of fear and pride,
Each wondering if what they knew
Was ever really, wholly true.

So off we walked, this mixed-up crew:
Alice with questions, Cow with moo
That carried wisdom, Spoon with light
From every moon and every night.

Behind us trailed the broken bits—
Half-rhymes and verbs that sought their fits,
Metaphors in mismatched dancing shoes,
Still seeking out their missing clues.

No longer bound by story’s rules,
We’d become something new, no fools—
Not quite the characters we’d been,
Not free of them—but in between.

And hovering above our band,
That smile from Cheshire’s distant land—
A grin that needs no cat to hold,
A question that will not be told.

This is what happens, child, you see,
When stories tumble, wild and free—
They find they’re more alike than not,
And walk together past their plot.

Liber Agglutivi: A Work of Fiction, Philosophy, and Reverence

It is difficult to describe the Liber Agglutivi, or as translated into English, The Agglutivum: A Treatise on the Intransitive Voice, for both its origin and content resist conventional classification. Its genesis, as I recount within the pages themselves, was not intellectual but oneiric. The word agglutive—unknown to me then, undefined in any language I … Continue reading “Liber Agglutivi: A Work of Fiction, Philosophy, and Reverence”


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It is difficult to describe the Liber Agglutivi, or as translated into English, The Agglutivum: A Treatise on the Intransitive Voice, for both its origin and content resist conventional classification. Its genesis, as I recount within the pages themselves, was not intellectual but oneiric. The word agglutive—unknown to me then, undefined in any language I knew—visited me repeatedly in sleep. So compelling was its sound and weight that, upon waking, I began at once to give breath to the whisper that had haunted my rest. What emerged was not story or doctrine, but something stranger and perhaps more elemental.

The text that followed felt less composed than revealed—an excavation rather than a construction. It is, in the truest sense, a received work. Its structure—voculae, glosselitha, silentia, postverba—appeared as if drawn from some hidden grammar beneath ordinary speech. Though shaped in Latin (with an English translation as appendix) and framed by scholarly apparatus, it is not a parody nor a pastiche, but a sincere tribute to the metaphysical impulse in language.

Readers may find echoes of Borges, Vico, and Pseudo-Dionysius; others may see affinities with mystical traditions, liturgical fragments, or even speculative linguistics. It may be read as fictive scripture, poetic glossolalia, philosophical provocation, or theological shadowplay. Or perhaps—if read rightly—it is none of these, but instead a call to silence, to memory, to the threshold of meaning itself.

Let it be said plainly: this work will not appeal to all. It is slow and strange, elliptical and spare. But for the rare reader attuned to the hum beneath the words we know, it may, in its own agglutive way, speak.

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PHILOSOPHICAL EXTENSION: ONTOLOGICAL VOCULAE

A Contemporary Meditation Inspired by the Liber Agglutivi

The Agglutivum suggests but does not systematize a catalog of words that resist conventional grammar—words that seem to create rather than merely describe reality. What follows is a modern attempt to identify and explore such “ontological voculae,” developed in the spirit of the medieval treatise but acknowledging its contemporary construction.


Voculae Agglutivae

A Supplement to the Glossarium Philosophicum
Non omnia verba dicuntur ut loquantur. Quaedam dicuntur ut fiant.


I. Sacra Voculae – Sacred Utterances

These words do not inform; they summon. Often liturgical, they retain weight through resonance, not explanation.

  • Amen
    Confirmatio sine contentu.
    —What is confirmed is not always known.
  • Alleluia
    Laus pura, sine scopo.
    —Praise that outruns its object.
  • Kyrie
    Clamor, non formula.
    —Not request, but primal cry.
  • Hosanna
    Eruptio, non enuntiatio.
    —A word of ascent, not address.
  • Om / Aum
    Vox quae se ipsam audit.
    —The breath that sustains itself.

II. Voculae Primitivae – Primal Expressions

Pre-conceptual utterances: the first stirrings of meaning, or the last.

  • Yes
    Vocabulum consentientis animae.
    —Affirmation without argument.
  • No
    Negatio sine opposito.
    —The first refusal of the void.
  • Ah
    Apertura interioris visus.
    —Recognition unmediated.
  • Oh
    Exclamatio praesentiae subitae.
    —When the world enters unbidden.
  • [Intake of breath before weeping]
    Suspirium originis.
    —A language too full to speak.

III. Nomina Se Nominantia – Names That Name Themselves

These words contain themselves, and alter meaning with each utterance.

  • God
    Vocabulum ad quod omnis significatio deficit.
    —The name that names the unnamable.
  • I
    Index mobilis identitatis.
    —Each speaker remakes it.
  • Here
    Locus qui loquitur se ipsum.
    —Presence given in the utterance.
  • Now
    Tempus quod fit dum nominatur.
    —Time speaking its own arrival.

IV. Verba Liminalia – Threshold Words

Spoken not to describe, but to open a space.

  • Hello
    Initiatio contactus.
    —More door than declaration.
  • Goodbye
    Benedictio transitus.
    —Departure sanctified in speech.
  • Please
    Vulnerabilitas facta audibilis.
    —A soft invocation of the will.
  • Welcome
    Domus facta verbo.
    —The house that builds itself in greeting.

V. Glosselithae Viventia – Words Worn Smooth by Use

Repeated beyond meaning, yet retaining force.

  • Love
    Verbum laesum; reclamatione indiget.
    —Desecrated by misuse, yet pulsing still.
  • Peace
    Optatio in figura dissoluta.
    —A longing that sounds like a promise.
  • Home
    Non locus, sed reditus.
    —Not place, but return.
  • Mother
    Verbum primordiale; lingua ante lingua.
    —The first word spoken without grammar.

VI. Voculae Intranslatae – The Untranslatable

Not exotic curiosities, but deep resonances foreign to our tongue.

  • Saudade (Portuguese)
    Absentia praesentiae desideratae.
    —Longing for what once was or never was.
  • Duende (Spanish)
    Spiritus tenebrosus artis viventis.
    —The dark, unteachable spark of art.
  • Hiraeth (Welsh)
    Nostalgia quae locum non habet.
    —Homesickness for an imagined past.

VII. Voculae Vulneratae – Wounded Words

To be spoken only with reverence, if at all.

  • Freedom
    Verbum quod fuit, et quod mendacio circumdatur.
    —Once invoked in hope, now weaponized.
  • Truth
    Conceptus fractus inter instrumenta.
    —Broken under the weight of use.
  • Justice
    Verbum spoliatum, ad reclamationem vocatum.
    —A word in exile.

Nota Terminalis:

Verba haec tangenda sunt sicut lapides post imbrem. Non sunt instrumenta, sed accessus. Loqui ea est transire limen. Tacere ea est servare lumen.